Personal vent thread bout my 20 pg research paper about depression and illness:

So, idk if I've ever mentioned this on main but like I'm in medicine and is currently in school to progress further (don't wanna get too personal on main) and one of my classes wants me to write a 20 pg paper on whatever topic that interests us

Because I wanna work in critical care and I've always held the topic of depression close to my heart, 20 pgs about the 2 is whatever. That's not the problem. THE PROBLEM IS THAT EVERYTHING COMES BACK TO RA/CE

One of the facts that I want to present is that some groups are more likely to acknowledge their symptoms and reach out for depression than others because of the cultural background in which they were raised in but when looking at all the charts supporting it

I can't help but ask, how legitimate are these numbers? In case anyone doesn't know this yet, there is a particular *favoritism* between the ra/ces that isn't only persistent in our everyday lives but in medicine as well. It literally makes me SICK to see it and have to question

The legitimacy of this science that I admire and appreciate and want to dedicate much, if not the rest, of my life to. Depression is not a new topic but it continues to be underdiagnosed and undertreated with at least 50% of clinicians failing to recognize or diagnose patients

And its disgusting that I have to ask, "How many of these clinicians played down a patient's symptoms because of the color of their skin?" How skewed is the data surrounding depression because of rac/ism?

I'm supposed to be focusing my topic on depression amongst the sickest of our patients, the ones who need our help the most, but how can I address that problem when the problem of ra/ce is still so ever persistent in our everyday and medical scenes?

In the general population, people are dy/ing from depression because their raised in a culture that doesn't believe in it or the stigma around it is so heavily stained with negativity they outright deny the diagnosis even when the clinician is able to properly assess it.

There are other issues to depression such as how ridiculously expensive it is and the treatment options available but G/od everything boils down to the stigma that demonizes it, the cultures that denies/ignores it, and the ra/cism of those who play down their patients symptoms

And the worst part, the absolute worst part that breaks my heart is that depression is underdiagnosed and severely undertreated within our most ill. Limited life expectancies lead to limited treatment options. The systemic symptoms of depression can easily be masked as---

progression of disease or medication side effects. In some cases, patients can't even pay to treat their life threatening illnesses let alone medication or therapy for their depression. Untreated depression can worsen these patient's pain, make treatment plans fail, or even

shorten their already short life expectancy whether it be requesting early euthanasia or otherwise. gaahhhakdsjfhalksdj ITS JUST SO FRUSTRATING. Our most sickest patients suffering with depression are struggling to stay alive yet the only answer I can think of right now is--

Not an answer for them but an answer for everyone: to improve ourselves in ridding the social negativity around depression, to continue having open discussion to bring light to these cultures that refuse to acknowledge it, and get rid of the ra/cism that affects the way our

patients are diagnosed/treated. I feel that this is a great answer for what I am able to come up and have researched over the past 2 months, but at the same time, I hate that this is the answer. These changes would improve care for all patients which is great, very much needed--

And though it'll definitely improve aspects for the critically and terminally (C/T) ill, who knows what other problems will pop up after all these changes are established. Because the general image is so skewed and disgusting, we can't look at the little nuances that affect

the different cases of patients, in the case of my paper, the C/T ill. Through my 2 month research, I was hopeful in finding what can be done to help improve their overall treatment so at least, at the end, they can go peacefully and without pain. As someone working in the--

medical field, that's all I want and aspire for and call me naive but I really do believe that everyone who goes into medicine feels that somewhere in their heart. It's just so so so disappointing, frustrating, aggravating, every synonymous word you can think of, that

I cant tackle the problem I chose bc how things are now doesn't work for the general population. Honestly, it feels like a big FU.

We've made tons of advancements in medicine and research but what's the point if ppl can't be properly diagnosed/treated bc of their skin? Why must the C/T ill suffer because of this? Haven't they had enough? Am I the only who whose heart breaks for them?

Well, that's my spiel on the topic, ig. Now im self conscious so imma delete this thread before I turn in my assignment (also don't want whatever plagarism site my school uses to think I'm plagarising... a weeb's twt acc..... ._. that'd be embarrassing to explain)