.The man who raped me said he was 25 and unmarried. My “ex”. I was 19.
A week or so before this day, he was ill and I was in the hospital with him. We had always spoken about one day having sex and what it would be like.
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Since we were at the hospital, we said he should get a test done for any STIs etc cause we wanted to have sex without a condom the first day (this apparently would have made it less painful/more enjoyable...lol)
So he got tested since we were there and he was good.
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The day it happened, I had given consent to sex without a condom. He started penetrating and it was soo painful. Extremely painful and I wanted out. I told him I couldn’t bare the pain so he should stop. He told me he was in already so it wasn’t going to be painful anymore .
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I wasn’t listening to any of it because all I felt was pain. Nothing else mattered to me than just being away from the pain. I remember tearing up from the pain , shaking my head and telling him to stop and he said “you need to relax if not it’s only going to hurt more” lol
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I didn’t want it to hurt more but I knew I didn’t want to continue and I felt the closest means to it not hurting was stopping immediately so I kept saying stop. This man was too into the euphoria of what he was feeling to listen. Mind you, he hadn’t started thrusting at all.
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All of this “penetration phase” happened for like 2 minutes or so but it felt like 20 minutes. I eventually stopped trying for fear of struggling and feeling any pain worse than what I was already feeling.
.When I relaxed, not up to 2 mins after he had “entered” , he calmly ,

blissfully, without an iota of worry said to me “I just came” lol!
I thought I was dreaming. “You what?” Was my response and again with the same energy, he said “I came”. His eyes were shut , he was blissful
.Lol the process of getting an emergency pill was something he could

care less about because he didn’t understand why I was panicking.
He tried reaching me after that day and I just couldn’t talk to him.
A week later, I called him after I had tried to get myself together & a woman picked up . Guess who ? It was his wife.

Lol this man happened to be 33 years old with a wife
.His defense when we eventually spoke: “we have been seperated for 4 years so “technically” i wasn’t married”.
‘I lied about my age cause you were young & I didn’t want you to feel like I was too old & we had a good thing going

Mind you, this was the first of a few others. So when we’re here having these conversations and raging with anger and your self centered self feels the need to make it all about you & how you’re the “good guy”, do us a favor and shut the fuck up !