you ever feel some way but then you don’t know you feel. like one point you want to marry someone and take them to Kansas and live on some farm with your kids? and the next minute you’re just like let’s stay friends. idk i feel like I’m talking out of my ass.

like i want to travel the world with this person. i want to see Rome, Paris, BUDAPEST. and god, id be like fuck no if someone told me to stop talking to this person. and now i know what i did wrong with my brother who’s not my brother but is my brother kinda

if you see this, you won’t because we have each other blocked. But if you do, I’m sorry. I don’t know if this is the proper way to apologize but i am. i think i tried to tell you not to be with the love of your life and I’d hate it if someone told me not to

be with someone i think could be mine. we’re both still young. and this isn’t me saying oh be my brother again. come back bubba. but this is a mistake i can own up to. i never knew that i could ever feel like how i think you currently feel. and that’s crazy.

either way though, I’m sorry. Or i apologize, idk how you want to take it. I don’t want to think about this or you anymore, not that you’re not constantly on my mind. but now that someone told me that you said it was my fault, i can see it now.

i’m a child, hypocrite say what you want but i was wrong and i already apologize. take it or not, that’s on you. but i never got the chance to thank you for anything, before you left, so here goes

i guess thank you for kinda helping raise me. thank you for all the relationship advice. thank you for at least TRYING to be a good brother. thank you for at least trying with me. you left because i made a mistake and if we can walk past each other and at

least say hi to each other then that’ll be great. but until then, just thank you thank you thank you for supporting me, giving me advice, and for being just a great fucking bubba. and I can’t apologize anymore because I’m not Canadian.

I’m horrifically glad that you’re happy now so that’s good. @ohitsj3 if you read this thread and feel like you could pass it on, thanks. I’m not looking for my brother back, i promise you I’m not. but if it wasn’t for him and his words and for him just being

a kickass brother when it came down to it, then i wouldn’t know what to do next. i still don’t. but i got other people in my corner to help me. thanks for everything, bubba. i know you’re better off now. and i think i am too.

We don’t pick family and we shouldn’t, you and i can testify to that. but we both taught each other valuable lessons and at the end of the day, i think we both got the love of our lives out of it. I’ll see you at the wedding.

all my love and affection forever,
-chato.