The system has failed black people. I made a comment the other day about how, whilst I completely sided and sympathised with those that were hurt and killed by the systematic racism issue in the USA and the constant stream of corruption that gets publically outed on social media>

, I also thought the looting and rioting wasn't the right channel for tackling the problem. I thought it only served to destroy their own community. I've been following this, reading threads, thinking about my view on this whole thing. I was wrong.

I don't just accept what's presented to me in a Tweet, thread, article. I anticipate there's an agenda to most posts. So I'll search for answers, cooberation, evidence. This goes for anything. Good analysis comes from taking the time to gather the information for yourself.

And I'm afforded the privilege of being so distant from the current issue, both geographically and by the colour of my skin.

Evidence is there, you don't need to speculate what happened. Not only in the case of George Floyd, but previous cases of police brutality against black people. Arguments that it was aggrovated can be invalidated too.

Both by the many videos depicting white people aggravating police in situations much worse than the black people in any of the videos surfacing, and just by the actual videos of black people being brutalised and harrassed by police.

Use your eyes. We dont have context of being in the situation, but actually watch the videos. They're victims.

In contrast, another thing I've noticed is how long it takes for action to be taken against the offending police. I've noticed how much traction these issues need to get before departments are forced to take action. They're not doing it for the sake of justice either.

It's saving face. Cutting off a finger to save the rest of the hand. What we're noticing, is that each step up the ladder, actions (of police) and inaction (failure to prosecute, and protect) are showing their true colours.

When it comes to this issue, there are no proper channels. The police system, that society trusts to enforce its law and values, is supposed to be the proper channel. But of course, people have seen enough and the trust is broken.

Go further up, and realise this behaviour is being enabled by the amount of power given to them, and the constant overlooking the issue until it blows up beyond their control.

Go even further up, look at the President. His Tweets alone. Not unreasonable to suggest he's playing a huge part in emboldening racists.

Where in this whole chain of injustice are the channels to fight back. They're all rigged against black people. The only way that seems to gets results is if you threaten the order. So I'm no longer questioning whether it's the right thing to do, it's the only thing to do.

Honestly, fuck waiting for more innocent people to be attacked, beaten or killed just because of the colour of their skin. I've always been so fucking sick of it. I feel guilty for even questioning it, even if my personal philosophy is to try to fully understand something first.

The fact I made a comment questioning the riots so early, the fact that was the focus of the only comment I publically made, betrays even my own racism. Why wasn't I as angry as everyone else? I wanted to be, and I certainly am now.

Historically, many different groups of people have faught wars and battles for their own rights and freedoms. This is the start of another one of those times.

I want racists to live in a world where they wouldn't dare share their bile and blind hatred with another living soul, out of fear of judgement and humiliation at minimum. I want them to realise their thoughts aren't something to be proud of.

Hopefully in this world, people would be able to unlearn those thoughts, or seek therapy to address it. The rest would have to sit and stew in it, and likely never realise that hating someone so irrationally for no reason is a result of an unhealthy or twisted mind.

After all, never has a valid reason to hate people solely for the colour of their skin ever existed, and I can confidently say that one never will. But that seems to be the only thing this boils down to.

I wanted to write something all day. I don't want to be quiet anymore. I hate that it always takes the loss and pain to come first, before people like me emotionally invest in gross problems like this. I realise now, that that's only part of my privilege.

This thread went from being journalistic, analytic, political, and personal because that was almost the stream of my thoughts and feelings on this during the past few days. I don't expect anyone to even read all this, but I had to speak up too. I couldn't sleep otherwise.