my mom is watching a livestream of the protest in denver. there was a man who would have been killed by police. and i said “i dont want you to watch someone die on livestream” and she said “no, shes recording”

what a fucking country. where a camera can save your life

and i get that this tweet is probably betraying my privilege and thats something i am sitting with and thinking about

i heard the confrontation and i was scared. i was so scared. and. its on a laptop screen in the other room. this isnt something i live. it will never be my father on the business end of police’s weaponry. i dont know this pain. i feel only a fraction of it. and fuck

i can barely stand it. i am sorry. i am trying to face this. i am trying to look this evil in the face. it is one thing for me to say “fuckin, ACAB”

and another thing to. i dont know. see that bastardry in action. come to terms with it. acknowledge it

these might be private twitter thoughts but. idk. i just wanted to say something

anyway. fuckin, ACAB

i talked with my mom about this and i cried. i cried so hard. and like i said. this isnt my pain. it is, but it isnt, ykno? does that make sense. i feel it so deeply but its only a fraction

to black friends, followers, acquaintances, strangers: i am so sorry that we as a nation and a people have forced you to bear this pain for so long. it is unconscionable. i am so sorry for those who have never listened, continue not to listen. and i am sorry for the times i didnt

i know my apology is nothing here i just. is this white guilt? i am so sad and furious

i am furious because we, white people, have let this happen for too long. all too often we have done more than let it happen. this is a crime against humanity

black lives MATTER. they fucking matter. and if you disagree, that isnt a difference of politics, it is a difference of morality

im not saying anything special here in this thread and my words are so meaningless in the face of this. but i just wanted to say. i dont know. something. anything

this all probably comes off as performative and i get that now that ive already typed it all out and sent it. sorry

this is the last tweet in the thread