I understand that people want to fucking sprwad awareness, i really really fucking do.
Of course it& #39;s fucking important to spread awareness.
It fucking is
The cop that killed the black man was in the wrong and should be put in jail-no, better on the electric chair
But god fucking damn it I cant do shit about it. I& #39;m a german, traumatised assbug that can& #39;t speak up most of the time cause they& #39;re scared of hurting others feelings.
But am i in the wrong for trying to not trigger myself by making some kind of dumb awareness post?
I am so fucking tired of trying to protect my mental health and then just being forced to destroy it. I talk about things when i CAN. I am a vulnerable piece of shit, i need my fucking time to heal, i need my time to be able to speak up like anyone fucking else.
But FOR FUCKS SAKE. JUST BECAUSE I AM NOT SAYING MUCH AGAINST IT, I AM NOT RACIST, A SNOWFLAKE, A DUMBASS OR SOME KIND OF MONSTER. I REALLY AM NOT
I HATE TO FUCKING BURST EVERYONE& #39;S BUBBLE BUT I AM NOT FUCKING GOLDEN MINDED LIKE YOU ARE. I AM NOT SILVER THOUNGED LIKE YOU ARE.
I AM WEAK AS SHIT MENTALLY, I NEED TIME, I NEED SPACE.
Why do i have to be the monster?
Why.
I am not against blm. I am fucking for it.
I just dont want to fucking say something wrong
I dont want to fucking discourse it every damn day. I do not wantto, neither can i
I am trying so fucking hard to not trigger myself anymore, i am doing my best, but uf i have tk constantly speak and talk about such controversial and serious things i cut off my barrier or mental stability with a knife.
If there is very little left for me to fucking speak, god im telling you i will trigger myself all day so i fucking suffer. I will trigger myself and i am scared I& #39;ll do it alot. I am scared of myself so thats why i make fucking limits.
If anyone says people are all racist for not saying anything about it, fuck them.

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