I understand that people want to fucking sprwad awareness, i really really fucking do.
Of course it's fucking important to spread awareness.
It fucking is
The cop that killed the black man was in the wrong and should be put in jail-no, better on the electric chair

But god fucking damn it I cant do shit about it. I'm a german, traumatised assbug that can't speak up most of the time cause they're scared of hurting others feelings.
But am i in the wrong for trying to not trigger myself by making some kind of dumb awareness post?

I am so fucking tired of trying to protect my mental health and then just being forced to destroy it. I talk about things when i CAN. I am a vulnerable piece of shit, i need my fucking time to heal, i need my time to be able to speak up like anyone fucking else.

But FOR FUCKS SAKE. JUST BECAUSE I AM NOT SAYING MUCH AGAINST IT, I AM NOT RACIST, A SNOWFLAKE, A DUMBASS OR SOME KIND OF MONSTER. I REALLY AM NOT

I HATE TO FUCKING BURST EVERYONE'S BUBBLE BUT I AM NOT FUCKING GOLDEN MINDED LIKE YOU ARE. I AM NOT SILVER THOUNGED LIKE YOU ARE.
I AM WEAK AS SHIT MENTALLY, I NEED TIME, I NEED SPACE.

Why do i have to be the monster?
Why.
I am not against blm. I am fucking for it.
I just dont want to fucking say something wrong
I dont want to fucking discourse it every damn day. I do not wantto, neither can i

I am trying so fucking hard to not trigger myself anymore, i am doing my best, but uf i have tk constantly speak and talk about such controversial and serious things i cut off my barrier or mental stability with a knife.

If there is very little left for me to fucking speak, god im telling you i will trigger myself all day so i fucking suffer. I will trigger myself and i am scared I'll do it alot. I am scared of myself so thats why i make fucking limits.

If anyone says people are all racist for not saying anything about it, fuck them.

End of thread.