hey you know those weird late night sessions where I get into my feelings and either get nostalgic, sappy, or suicidal? yeah its one of those nights again. nobody worry, im just nostalgic this time.

not gonna lie, a lot of the news happening has bumbed me out lately. it really reinforces how cruel the world can be and how much things suck, but its been like this for a while now. I uh, I just needed a pick me up and I got nostalgic for "the good old days"

trust me, Im aware its always been like this. there are only "good old days" cause we weren't as acutely aware of it then. but, I wanted to go look at some of the good stuff and I stumbled upon my comic again. went to check the stats. first of all-

ayo who the FUCK is reading my comic in 2020? stop! it was shit! let it die!

also to whoever the fuck the 2 people that downloaded the demo for my game are. thank you. but also why? lmao

but the thing that really hit me hard was this. just a very real message when I finished up my comic. and god did it just... really make me proud and embarrassed and happy. and miss it.

a lot of things are either scrapped or tbd. and the game is now making a snails pace of progress but this way my passion. this was just a dumb kid trying to make his friends laugh that spiraled out of control into an epic and stupid ass story. and I miss that.

I miss laughing at dumb shit, I miss filling the comic with stupid inside jokes only my friends would get. I miss getting lazy with the art that resulted in images that got fucking memed to shit. I miss being a kid, man.

this was just a solitary reminder why I had so much passion when it ended. and why I wanted the game to do well. it was a love letter to these times. to this stupid... STUPID comic I made. and the friends I put up with during it.

I guess all im trying to say is... at some point I lost my passion for the game (and lets be honest, creativity in general. didn't draw for, like, a year) but this really put it back in me. I kinda wanna work on the game again. and its the first time in a long time.

thank you for listening to me rant for only god knows how fucking long. I appreciate it. yall can go back to sleep, or wilding or whatever the fuck. I think I got a game to work on. also for whoever is still reading my comic STOP THAT SHIT. LET IT DIE IN OBSCURITY ALREADY!