Well this just made me feel guilty even more, I& #39;ve been bullied back in elementary and even though I couldn& #39;t fought back to the bullies, instead of ignoring it I started bullying others who I know that they are weaker than me or just more sensitive than me. https://twitter.com/kinoluiz/status/1244849494207807489">https://twitter.com/kinoluiz/...

I& #39;ve become the "bullied Bully" get it? https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat"> And because of this thread and me over thinking again, it makes me & #39;more guilty& #39;, may be an understatement let& #39;s just say I don& #39;t deserve the people who I befriended right now.

It is because that I& #39;ve done horrible things back then and there& #39;s this recent confrontations that made me realise that what I said to that persons characteristics and behaviour, was the exact characteristics and behaviour that I had when I was bullying

I told my friends that I don& #39;t like her cuz she& #39;s so manipulative and a big fat liar... And thinking back I to did manipulate people into thinking I was the victim back in elementary and to support that manipulation I Porposly LIE to Finnish my assault

And right now, and because of this stupid quarantine it& #39;s like I& #39;m being tutored by my past mistakes, past failures, they are haunting me to the point I couldn& #39;t even understand myself.

I don& #39;t deserve forgiveness, why? Cuz it is just a facade that people give you to either forget you or to destroy your ego and mentality. What I deserve is damnification, Redemption? Ehh am I to holy to you?