TW//Suicide

I& #39;ve always thought a lot about suicide, and it& #39;s gotten a lot worse recently with so many people suddenly talking about it on my TL.

I& #39;ve thought about it for a while now, and some of you who know my history know that this isn& #39;t a new thing for me,

It comes and goes, but it& #39;s worrying.

I don& #39;t really have any intentions currently of committing... but the thought comes to me in little moments, almost randomly.

Any stress can set it off, any minor inconvenience..

I could drop my toast and my brain will go "okay but what if we died..."

Even sometimes when I& #39;m just sitting down relaxing it will be like "hey what if we ended it right now"

I currently have no want to act on these impulses, but it scares me how frequent they are becoming

I& #39;m sorry if this thread has worried you or has got you panicked at all, that& #39;s not my intention

It& #39;s just something that I had to get off my chest.

I& #39;m sorry for burdening y& #39;all with my problems.