TW//Suicide

I've always thought a lot about suicide, and it's gotten a lot worse recently with so many people suddenly talking about it on my TL.

I've thought about it for a while now, and some of you who know my history know that this isn't a new thing for me,

It comes and goes, but it's worrying.

I don't really have any intentions currently of committing... but the thought comes to me in little moments, almost randomly.

Any stress can set it off, any minor inconvenience..

I could drop my toast and my brain will go "okay but what if we died..."

Even sometimes when I'm just sitting down relaxing it will be like "hey what if we ended it right now"

I currently have no want to act on these impulses, but it scares me how frequent they are becoming

I'm sorry if this thread has worried you or has got you panicked at all, that's not my intention

It's just something that I had to get off my chest.

I'm sorry for burdening y'all with my problems.