Don’t mistake habit for hard work.

Anyone can show up and do a bunch of shit that they think will help them. But what are they getting out of it other than just checking it off a list.

Development isn’t linear. It doesn’t just happen by doing a bunch of stuff.

Development happens when you are isolated. When you are challenged. When you get knocked down.

And actually learning something from the experience. Looking at different ways to view it. Negatively and positively. And wrestling with those view points. Truly.

Anybody who tries to tell me a path or tools to “success” or “development” I kind of look at them sideways

Because if you understand development, you know those things don’t really do jack shit.

That’s fantasy shit.

Anybody can live in a bubble of positivity. It’s easy.

It takes some guts to step out of that bubble and look at other perspectives.

To look at the pain of others and try to understand them. To be empathetic and feel that anger or sadnesss.

People tell me I’m happy all the time. I never have a bad day.

I don’t have many bad days because I understand the pain of others who have bad days. Plus I have a dope life and being sad about shit isn’t me.

And if I do have a bad day, I don’t glorify it. I don’t talk about it. Because it’s bad. Is that healthy? Probably not.

But I’m working on it. I’m fighting with myself internally. I let that fight continue internally and privately to not burden others.

I don’t wish my problems away. I try to avoid toxic positivity because I’ve been there. And it’s a dark road.

When you’re really there, you don’t feel anything at all. No negativity. And that’s not how we are made to be. We are made to feel sad and angry.

Rant over. I don’t even know the purpose of that, but I said it because I felt like it.

I hope I offended or connected with you.