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trigger warning// suicide
i’m gonna be talking about a personal experience, and normally i wouldn’t talk about smth so personal but i am so pissed and i want to rant and have those ppl who think it’s okay hear me
i’m gonna be talking about a personal experience, and normally i wouldn’t talk about smth so personal but i am so pissed and i want to rant and have those ppl who think it’s okay hear me
tw// suicide
how dare you, seriously how DARE you joke about smth like that for attention. attempting suicide isn’t all fun and games and neither is not succeeding to do it either
how dare you, seriously how DARE you joke about smth like that for attention. attempting suicide isn’t all fun and games and neither is not succeeding to do it either
you don’t understand the heartbreak you feel at knowing you survived, or the guilt you feel towards your loved ones and how it feels to have ppl tiptoe around you bc they’re scared of saying or doing smth that might trigger you
having things that used to be easily accessible to you be taken away or monitored, the feeling of just.. not feeling, having no emotions at all, especially after it just happened, it took me weeks to start to feel smth again and even then it was just guilt
in my situation i was left on my own for hours whilst i was in the hospital, no family was allowed with me, nothing
no one tells you about the damage you cause to yourself if you fail, of course it’s different depending on the situation, but having multiple seizures then waking up in a cold white room with random strangers in the beds next to me is smth i can never forget
no one tells you about what happens after, the constant check ins to see how you’re doing from professionals, having ppl ask you why you would do smth like that and having everyone knowing your business, the amount of medication you have to take
you don’t just get to escape it and forget that it happened, no you’re reminded of it every. fucking. day. and to see ppl joking about it for a bit of attention, it genuinely makes my blood boil
no one will ever understand what it’s like to go through smth like that unless they’ve experienced it, and i hope to god that no one reading this right now has gone through it or will ever go through it, bc you don’t deserve that
i’m not gonna finish this thread by saying stuff like your have so much to live for’ or ‘you’re loved’ bc most of the time that isn’t any fucking help, what i will say is if you do feel like that TALK to someone, whether it be a friend, family member, therapist..
hotline, doctor or whoever else. just let it out, rant to someone, tell someone what kind of place you’re in
and to those who have joked about suicide, i don’t wish any harm on you but i do hope you realise how much your actions affect other ppl, even if it is ‘just a tweet’
okay i’m exhausted now after getting all that out, so i’m going to try and actually leave, maybe i should turn my phone off this time. i love you guys so so much
