I've never really been good at screaming, whenever I'm "supposed" to do so I just get very quiet. Usually I just disappear inside myself. Most of the times when I've tried a more thrill-based amusement park ride I've mostly just tried to quietly get through it until it's over.

I had fairly strong baby cholic when I was little, maybe I just got all the screaming out of my system early on.

While trying amusement park rides I've occasionally tried to force some screams out of myself, but it's really hard. It's like I at a deeply fundamental level don't want all those judgemental stares at me, even though I know that I'm in a setting where screaming is expected of me