I am going to throw my aunt through a goddamn window.

It turns out that she was drinking, the doctor told her my Oma signed a DNR, and my aunt got off the phone and called the family to tell us all that Oma was about to die any minute.

I stayed up late last night grieving and processing that I wouldn’t be able to say goodbye to my Oma, and my aunt (who is the only one allowed to talk to the doctors) has been feeding us what SHE thinks the situation is instead.

I can’t begin to tell you how frustrated and emotionally broken I feel right now.

I’m grateful that Oma is currently doing better, and that she’s apparently sitting up, eating and being herself, but I can’t get over how irresponsible it was of my aunt to handle things like this.

I know I’m over sharing a bit here but like, I’m alone at home thinking the worst and don’t have anyone to talk this through with here.

I’m so very tired.