3 years ago, i told you i that you were blocking the view while i was trying to take a picture of the sunrise. it was actually one of my little white lies. it was actually you that i was trying to capture because you had been my ball of sunshine back then.

3 years ago, around 5 in the morning, on the same spot i took pictures of your silhouette, we quietly talked in a hushed voice. few days before this, i told you had something important to tell you but i wanna say it at the right time. you won’t stop nagging me about it. +

you kept pushing me to say it from the start till the end of the gig though i knew damn well that you knew what i was going to say but you just didn’t wanna assume things. i still didn’t tell you though. well, not until a week later that i’ve told you that i‘ve grown to like you.

if i could live one more day from my past, this would be one of those days i wish i can bring back. welcoming the sunset with my favorite person by my side by the river on a sunday morning, “sacred” by in hearts wake playing in my ipad in the background.

this was the day actions spoke it all. how i laid my head on your leg and you just let me. how we stared at each other for a few seconds before you pinched my nose. how i was walking ahead in front of you but you pulled me by my backpack towards you so we can walk side by side.

one of the most surreal moments of my life. well, every happy moment was surreal with you. i don’t even think that anyone can understand how it feels to feel this way for/with you. not even you. these were one of my golden days searching for genuine happiness & then i found you.

and as i end this thread, it just makes me sad because this is something we can no longer go back to. things were never the same like before. each day just gets trivial; sunny days slowly turning into gloomy days. and here i realized that in every dawn, indeed there’s a dusk.