Oh yeah not every body knows about my personality. Actually I don't rely so much in this theory but sometimes it helps me to understand my thinking and mental process (Not a spesific behaviour like preference)

I already test a bunch of personality platform. Most mbti test is based on 8 cognition function test not 4 types stereotype. I already test STIFIN too with my fingerprint, it's a genetic personality I had (the official said)

My Cognition test result is somehow always led me to INTP or INFJ personality. I don't know what mine is bcs I still studying that dominant personality. I know my self better than anyone when somehow I can be logical cruel (INTP) or easily emotional attached (INFJ)

On the other theory, my STIFIN result is Introverted Thinking. They said it is my genetic personality. It means that I already had this personality as my blueprint

INTP's cognition function is Ti, Ne, Si, and Fe. While INFJ's cognition function is Ni, Fe Ti, Se. It's a bit contrary thinking process right?
INTP is logic devil, and
INFJ is wise emotional

So I found that in the early ages, I was developed my INTP side. When I was a teenager, I.. subconsciously developed my INFJ side. It's like Ti-Fe tug of war. It is my fault that I don't realize my own personality as I am attached to some emotion (love) back then.

Though, I am really bad in feeling experience, especially romantic things. I accept that weakness.

So as INTP is my blueprint, and I grown into fake personality, I turn into unhealthy INTP. No matter how much I developed my feeling side, It's not my strength at all. I will feeling useless, emo, and melancholic when I was trying to. It was happen when I was Senior Highschooler

Someone tell me the truth about who I am to be. I also being confused w my own personality as I feel like.. I am too detached from this world. Feeling different is normal, but I don't think I connected w my surrounding. It just feeling aloof and detached

I don't want to say that I am divergent. Bcs I'm not a special, or the one like neo in the matrix. It just a journey to understand my own mental and thinking process. A journey to understand my self esteem.

So I'm trying to figure out my personality. My cognitive function result is INTP, and I prefer that personality. This is the answer why I feeling aloof and detached from the world. Mine is the rarest personality in MBTI theory. Still it just a theory to help understand ourselves

INTP has cognitive function:
Ti : Introverted Thinking
Ne : Extraverted Intuition
Si : Introverted Sensing
Fe : Extraverted Feeling

Ti is logical process thinking, decision makers, my main machine. This is why I always get sceptical about everything.

Ne is my explorer, looking for knowledge out there. If you look closer to me enough, I love to explore anything that interest my Ti function.

Si is my mind library, my comfort zone, my defense, it's much more like a contrary to my Ne when I am too lazy for exploring and rely on my own memories I had.

Fe is the enemy of Ti sometimes, but can be useful for fitting myself in conversation and gaining information

Surprisingly, my closest circle has the similarities. They are NTs/SPs/NFs person. Based on Carl Jung theory, INTP will get along easily with that type of personality. Myclosest friend in senior highschool, all are NTs person lol wkwk

So for you who wants to understand me better than anyone, go look for INTP character. This thread is made to just inform. You don't have to response. I'm talking w myself

I don't mind if most of the times ppl I met, they just misunderstood me. Bcs this world doesn't seem made for my existence. I mean, this world system really fit with sensing type person.