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Also di ko alam kung may trigger ba ito pero TRIGGER WARNING na rin para sure tayo. Pls don& #39;t read if u think it will be unhealthy for you.
The story of my favorite sketch entitled "Growth".
(a thread)
Also di ko alam kung may trigger ba ito pero TRIGGER WARNING na rin para sure tayo. Pls don& #39;t read if u think it will be unhealthy for you.
The story of my favorite sketch entitled "Growth".
(a thread)
So ayon, I really want to make this as short as possible kaya I& #39;ll try my best. Haha.
When I was in third year college, ginawa akong EIC ng publication namin. Which was not my goal. Ayoko talaga. Di naman ako leader eh. Ano naman magiging ambag ko? Baka ma-let down ko lang yung mga taong umaasa sa akin na i-lead sila.
In short, nag overthink ako ng sobra.
In short, nag overthink ako ng sobra.
Kasi, it was really not my strong point. Sobrang baba kasi ng self-esteem ko. Feeling ko di ko namee-meet standards ng ibang tao. I felt like everybody looked down on me. There were voices in my head saying na
"Di mo na kaya. Itigil mo na."
"Wala kang kwenta."
"Di mo na kaya. Itigil mo na."
"Wala kang kwenta."
I felt like everybody hated me. Hated my leadership. Feeling ko laging "Bakit ba kasi siya yung pinili na EIC?" ang nasa isip ng advisers namin.
Kasi nga... sino ba naman ako diba?
Kasi nga... sino ba naman ako diba?
Overthinking. Anxiety. Depression. Publication duties. Academic responsibilities. Tapos idagdag pa natin yung identity crisis ko kasi at that time I was at the verge of coming out.
They all piled up on top of eachother.
Each day, the weight got heavier.
They all piled up on top of eachother.
Each day, the weight got heavier.
Until... I snapped.
I did something that I shouldn& #39;t have done. The thoughts ate up my mind and pushed me to do the unthinkable. I was numb. I was empty.
But I realized after a few days that what I did was wrong. It was wrong to stain your temple. To destroy something as sacred and beautiful as your body. So I drew this in my notebook.
(the black sticker is there to serve as watermark)
(the black sticker is there to serve as watermark)
The scars on my body now serve as a symbol for me. A symbol of growth. They serve as roots where the most beautiful of flowers will bloom. I have learned my lesson.
Thru the years, I have learned to love myself more.
Thru the years, I have learned to love myself more.
Because your body is a sacred temple. A home. A safe place, and letting your thoughts destroy your temple is not worth it.
You are worth more than what your mind tells you. So much more.
You are worth more than what your mind tells you. So much more.
It& #39;s been three years since that happened.
I am better now.
I am whole.
I am content.
I am happier.
I am better now.
I am whole.
I am content.
I am happier.
If you& #39;re still reading this, I hope this has shed some light on you. Sana matuto ka nang mas mahalin ang sarili mo. Dahil walang ibang "ikaw" dito sa mundo.
Wag kang aayaw, ha?
Padayon, mga mahal
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Wag kang aayaw, ha?
Padayon, mga mahal
(also, if u find this thread triggering pls dm me so i can delete it)
