This isn't "continuing the argument" or anything, I just want to spin my perspective on things for a bit, and why flat out refusal to challenge ideals of people at all makes me generally angry.

Long and very personal thread incoming. https://twitter.com/prpltnkr/status/1265804007416594432
I was raised in a very conservative, christian environment. My grandmother, who raised me, was, is, and probably forever will be a die hard conservative. I was also home-schooled and naturally sapped up her ideals that were obviously not great morally.
I used to be incredibly bigoted as a result, because there wasn't ever anyone to challenge my ideals and I just accepted everything she ever said as irrefutable fact. I never had an outlet to really confirm or deny any of the stuff she said.
On top of that, I only ever got to hang out with people /she/ approved of, which were people that generally shared the same mindset as she did. It wasn't until I really started browsing around on the internet and started talking in online groups that things changed.
I was every deplorable thing you could imagine. Racist, homophobic, transphobic, even throwing around the "N" word unsolicited because I thought being edgy was "cool."

Being a channer for a little while also didn't help things either, in fact it just kind of reinforced it.
I started to lose the few friends I had ever made over being an edgy piece of shit. I had no clue why and started getting angry about it until people really started pointing out what the hell was wrong with me. Which, in turn, kind of put things into perspective for me.
Now, obviously, it wasn't an overnight change. I still struggle with some admittedly questionable viewpoints and language adapted from my upbringing that just slips out because I'm irrationally angry. Having BDP does that to a person but it's not an excuse. At all.
But my point is, if people, whom I failed to mention earlier that I met through the MLP community, didn't really start challenging my morals and ideals, I never would have changed. I'd still be that god awful person I was less than ten years ago.
It's why I have this nagging feeling to try to help people change because, despite their current state of mind, I know deep down in there, there's a good person inside.

It's partially why I stay friends with people that sometimes, I'm not even sure why I'm acquainted with.
Now, don't get me wrong, there are plenty of people that in order for anything to change, need a healthy dose of self reflection in order to see why their words or actions are hurting others around them, and that there's nothing YOU personally can do.

I fully understand that.
I just feel that lashing out and being mean and angry at people doesn't solve anything.

Anyway. End thread. This is the last I'll say on the matter for the time being. Take what you will from it.
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