anyway i hate my father and wanna get out of this house xoxo

he needs to know fucking everything i do every move i fucking make every person i talk to every single little detail in my life i feel so trapped and imprisoned i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it let me go

i hate how he makes a clear point of looking at my screen and looking at what im doing and getting the names of the people i know and asking me to tell him exactly what were doing or what were talking about i hate it i hate it so much im so tired of not being allowed privacy

its always been like this, i cant escape, no where is safe anymore, i hate him i want to be far away from here, im exhausted

hes just such a control freak and im so fucking tired of this i cant do this

"dont be so aggressive" then dont try and worm your way into every single part of my life you homophobic transphobic controlling bigot oh my GOD im so done

I've had a shower and have stopped crying now at least but God I just can't forgive this man for years of hate speach against lesbians, constant invasion of privacy, guilt tripping me for being lgbt, and constant physical contact when I have said I don't want it

I have a genuine paranoid fear of being around him I am terrified of him and do not want him near me actually

So anyway I'll probably delete this thread about my anger and hatred and sheer unadulterated fear of a man I can't untangle from my life that has been building and building since 2013 and is making me burst