Thread by @SleepyAngelQvQ, vent thread:i'm really tired tbh- i get so attached to people who [...]

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i& #39;m really tired tbh- i get so attached to people who aren& #39;t even real, or who are real, and just are so far away, and it makes me so sad to know that i& #39;ll most likely never see them.... i have a couple friends who react poorly to me, and it hurts- not because-

-of how they treat me, but that i make plans of telling them that we can& #39;t be friends anymore, but when i do, i just fill up with guilt and sadness and i immediately go to saying that i just need time to think-. i& #39;m confused with my sexuality, and i am super fucking dumb. like-

-i& #39;m confused all the time, and sometimes i don& #39;t even understand basic questions, or it takes me a bit to understand what it is that the person is saying, even though to everyone else they understands it right away.

i talk to myself a lot- like.. A LOT. it first started off as just staying up 30 minuets to daydream in silence, but now i stay up like an hour and a half daydreaming, and talking like someone is there- and i& #39;ve just done it so much that it really feels like someone is there -

- i& #39;m trying to get myself to stop, because whenever i& #39;m home alone, or out on my own i talk to myself, and i& #39;m really starting to worry about- myself,,, starting earlier yesterday, i& #39;ve been holding myself back from talking to absolutely nothing, and it hurts-

-it honestly hurts,, i feel this- fuzzy, butterfly feeling in my chest and i feel sad like i& #39;m doing something wrong. just a while ago, i was at dollar store with my friend, and we went there to get painting stuff, and i was looking around and i saw this like- exact-o knife -

-my mind immediately went to "buy it so you can cut whenever". i didn& #39;t, but i kept picking it up, and almost bought it just for that reason-. but my friends dad came up behind me and said "you have a knife- that& #39;s scary-" so i put it back- her dad literally saved me... lol-

my one friend just- gets his head stuck up his ass at the slightest things i do- and i am filled with anger and hate when he mentions his friend isaiah, because isaiah literally called me stupid, dumb, a hoe, a thot, a whore and a disgrace for 1. liking someone out of our state -

- 2. getting tik tok. a while ago i was thinking about going into the national guard when i grow up, but isaiah also said that i wouldn& #39;t make it through boot camp-. and no, him and i aren& #39;t friends anymore but when this friend mentions isaiah, i just get angry- thinking ;

"wow- you still hangout with that guy after all that he& #39;s said about me?"
this friend just makes me so angry, because it& #39;s like everything i do is a problem to him. literally not wanting to roleplay was this huge deal for him- he literally went off on me-

-saying he was just done roleplaying period, and when i just kept saying "ok", and he just kept asking me why i didn& #39;t want to, which all of our rp& #39;s are the same, and he wants to restart them really early into them rp, so i told him that, and he just said "so im not interesting-

-enough then" and i said no because him and i literally hung out that day-

i& #39;m also not liking myself- whenever i look in the mirror i just see this- big- slob,, and i hate it- literally the only thing that is stopping me from having an eating disorder is my emetophobia,,

whoever made it to the end of this thread- thank you so much :") i love you

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