anyways, i have been thinking a lot lately bc idk i was kinda feeling embarrassed about my feelings, i haven't talked with my dad about his son and i still feel embarrassed, I have never talked about serious topics with him, and I think this is something I need to work, to trust

in my dad, and well hard moments didnt finish right there, days ago, one person threatened my mom and i, like i didnt have enough with what happened to my brother, but i can't change things, nobody can, just take care of myself, like physically and mentally, ask for support

and stay strong, i know my dad, my brother's mom aren't doing okay rn, they must be feeling really bad, and i think it's my time to share some time with them and make them know that they aren't alone, like i have been feeling like no one understands me

So that's exactly what i really want to do, share moments with the ppl I love and accompany each other in this hard moment and not just keeping my feelings just to myself and drowning in them anyways this thread is useless but I wanted to share some feelings and thoughts