tw// sexual abuse, molestation, attempted rape

I actually don't know how to even say this without going into details but I'll try https://twitter.com/rmfilters/status/1265506100687888392

sexual abuse/molestation: one of my uncles-in-law, used to molest me. would give me treats then would put me on his lap, would touch me in places but I didn't know better than, I was 10. but I knew it was wrong, I felt wrong but I never told anyone because he threatened me

one of my own cousins, would come into my room and grope me, touch me in places I would never touch sexually, I was 14. but I never told anyone, I didn't have a voice.

one of my past bosses, groped my ass, would touch my boobs, would put their hands on my thighs when peoplecant see. I was working behind a really high counter. no one would see. there were no cameras. I needed that job, that money to fund my studies. so I never said anything

but I quit that job. his friends would harass me on the phone, would try to provoke me, and have phone sex, would spew dirty filty stuff to me. I reported them to police. it was in 2014, I've never heard from police again

a little after that, I started dating after trusting and talking someone for six months, I was a touch starved person. I needed something good. but that animal wanted to rape me when I finally agreed to show my body. he forced me to be submissive to him, made me give him blowjobs

in a semipublic place, send his dick pics when I begged him not to send, humiliated me, lied and manipulated me, and on this horrible day I'll never forget, he tried to do force anal when I won't open my legs for him. I won't ever forget that assholes face.

talked to my then best friend, about it and asked her to go to hospital with me, she blamed me. "it's your fault" "no one will ever believe you"

fast forward a couple of years, subjected to domestic violence from my step father. he locked me inside me room, forbid me from going to colellege, assumed I was having sex with my cousin when the boy was younger than my own brother. I was depressed. studying was the only

thing outside bts that kepot me going

but he took that away. I had to retake one semester, because I couldn't sit in the exams. my body wasn't functioning well to do tests. I was depressed, didn't go to anywhere for three months. if iit wasn't for the lady in the lounge where I stayed

don't even know how I would be even alive now. I stopped attending classes because my disassociation got worse. so a lot of things happened with me but I never had a voice.

one last thing.