I don't tell anyone when I'm in a depressive state because I don't want to concern anyone, but then I tweet all this manic shit that I regret later and people get concerned anyways. I just can't fucking win with this shit.

Like legit, I just lose track of reality and when I come to I remember all the shit I posted and I have to delete it. I don't know what the deal is, but it's really fucking annoying because I don't want anyone to be burdened by my shit and my stupid self is making it public.

I'm considering deleting Twitter, but right now it's the only way I can see what my friends are up to which I don't want to give up.

I might delete this thread too, but I thought I'd kinda explain whats going on while I'm a bit more lucid.