i wanna say im sorry to all my friends who have had to deal with me saying things like "i don& #39;t have any friends", "i dont feel close to anyone", comments about not understanding friendships, and the distancing / canceling of plans i& #39;ve done with people over the past years

the more i& #39;m finding out about what& #39;s going on in my brain the more i& #39;m understanding that a lot of the bad feelings i& #39;ve had were bc of undiagnosed mental health stuff & lack of therapy & i& #39;m now taking active steps to fix all this & to be better to myself & the ppl i care about

the worst part of all this is being fully self aware of your actions & how ridiculous it seems but not being able to do anything about it bc you didn& #39;t know why you were feeling this way anyway