MASTURBATION YEARS BEFORE DEVELOPMENT

So in the previous thread I talked about how I got into porn and masturbation. Now, after I discovered that existed and was something one could do...

I just, had to try it.

Locked the room’s door and got myself in bed, thinking I was the exact same man I had seen in the video second ago.

I became quite horny and decided to go down my pants.

Touched myself for the first time and it felt weird. I didn’t know how to do it, or what to imagine or feel.

I was expecting semen to come out of me but I didn’t even have pubic hair back then! Nothing came out of me.

To this day, I don’t know if masturbation pre-development is bad for someone.

I might be thinking crazy but I really don’t know if that can affect one’s development, stop penis growth, retard something, make someone sterile or have damage in the testicles or something

I started to do that, just like I started with porn.

Once a month or when I remembered and the situation was right.

Then once a week. I wanted to do it more, put myself in positions I had seen from the porn videos. Imagine myself being posessed by someone.

Yes, from the beginning of my sexual discovery, I imagined myself as either the man or the woman in the encounter, so that makes sense to know now that my sexual orientation had never been “heterosexual”

And also yes, I imagined myself being posessed. Attacked. In kind of violent but I want to think “consented” encounters...

This is something I have always had a fascination for. When I used to role play with my cousins, I would always try to be the lady in trouble, or the vulnerable fragile boy.

I don’t even know what to think about that. Do I fantasise about being fragile so that someone saves me?

This is literally moving my brain in so many directions right now... damn

Anyway. To finish this thread.
That’s how it started. I started doing it from the minimun frecuency to come to do it daily.

I have even had times in which I do it more than once per day.

I can masturbate once in the morning, then once before sleeping.

I remember once, I masturbated around 15 times in ONE DAY!

After that my penis literally felt sore! I think I must have made some skin damage because I had redness and then a kind of scab in my foreskin.