It took only 5 days of not having to work for my opinion of my job, and whole pre-corona life loop, to just disintegrate entirely. I want OUT, y'all

I feel guilty about times when I don't like my job. It's a cushy office gig, and my friends in customer service/retail definitely work harder & put up with more BS. But that doesn't mean I should lie to myself that I *enjoy* this

My regular life is like job > pickup my wife from hers > cook dinner > it's now bedtime, repeat. Errands often get pushed to the weekend, which Mar often has to work too, so there's these TINY little slices where we get to spend time together. We deserve better than that

Quarantine sucks BUT it I get to spend oodles of time with someone I adore, & getting to work on personal projects is AMAZING. My lil inventions have gone further in 2 weeks than 3 years. This all makes me very happy, & I'm not going to give it up when 'normal' life returns

If I get to the end of my life and I've spent it writing training documentation for a software company and going to raves once every three months, I'll feel like I squandered my time. I'm supposed to leave this place better than I found it

So yeah idk exactly what's next and I'm not leaving the corporate world without a good exit plan.... but it is SO exit plan time.