*HOW YOUR LOW SELF ESTEEM CAN AFFECT YOU" (a thread)
7 years down the lane and i was so insecure that back then, when i saw everyone doing it, i changed my name to 'princess nargis' on Facebook. a girl rolled her eyes at me "you really feel so, shaqal dekhi hai apni''(1/10)

& when i asked the same, her reply was "ofc, look at me. the same night, i cried (lol) & removed my Facebook account. i was good in academics/Co_curriculars, not kidding, i was extremely confident about everything but not how i looked.(2/10)

a bit weird but all my friends had slimmer lips & i thought it's inappropriate to have them as i had. a girl told me once, "ewww, you look like a billi with kajal'' and i never used it for years.(3/10)

my form teacher in class 10 once said "nargis, hanste huay achi lagti ho,keep smiling" i practiced the same in mirror for weeks because I believed I am ugly & compliments are not for me. unknowingly, I was seeking validation on my looks from people who didn't matter.(4/10)

when my school crush proposed my best friend & they started dating, i felt a solid comment on my appearance again. i feared losing people, sacrificed my peace just to please my friends because i thought i won't get friends.(5/10)

while i took music professionally,i got more invested in the art & all other things got a backseat.meeting a lot of new artistes, getting along weird people & i started accepting myself. mom's death helped me cope up with 'it's okay to lose people if they are not worth it's(6/10)

now i'm at the point of my life where i feel I'm beautiful & ugly sometimes. everybody is. compliments make me happy ofc(human nature) but even if someone comes to tell me 'you're ugly' I'd rather agree nd laugh because why care? who to please & what for? why? (7/10)

I even sometimes get obsessed with myself on the mirror & sometimes laugh at myself. to everyone out there, I wanna say, you don't need a definition, you're you & let your self be. also, it's okay to tell someone they are beautiful/cute etc if you feel they are so but(8/10)

it's not okay to call someone ugly even if you feel they are. you feel someone is ugly, just keep it to your self. you don't know the battles people are fighting within themselves. everybody isn't lucky to experience life events, to realize his/her worth on their own.(9/10)

there are people who live with that one bad comment you made on their appearance, all their lives. good faces don't make this world a better place, good minds and hearts do. please chill out & keep your toxicity to yourself only. live and let live. (10/10)