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ngl im pretty doutan-kyohi outside of my friendship circles (親輪外同担拒否) and i dont really like meeting new people so im just a double-whammy on
"pls do not interact"
"pls do not interact"
i also have paranoia on the side of seeing any remnants of my 1st ex and last i remembered we shared a few fandoms so that fuels my avoidance
like if i have to be honest when P5 came out i have a gut feeling my ex is gonna be involved in the fandom one way or another and i have precisely 3 characters that i can estimate to be my ex's fave (m*sh*ma (dont wanna stain homeboy's tags with my minor vent), ry*ji and g*r**)
and well i also like homeboy a lot so at the time i kinda resigned to "well i guess i'll be hiding in the corner" bc last i remembered interacting with fellow fandom people gave me a panic attack at 2 am bc i saw my ex draw aich** l*onl*ca
> mikaru are u okay
im okay. nothing happened i just needed to let this dirty laundry out on why i get heavy anxiety over interacting with fandoms
im okay. nothing happened i just needed to let this dirty laundry out on why i get heavy anxiety over interacting with fandoms
im trying to get over it tho. like now, maybe once a year i'll meet 2-3 new people. or more if there are cons!
i hate thinking about the estimated 3 characters and i know why
because 1. mamo, 2. pretentious detective-ass bitch-ass (i dont like him bc i actually DONT like him as a char, but ykno my ex really nailed this bitch to the coffin for me), 3. satoshi from hyouka-energy
because 1. mamo, 2. pretentious detective-ass bitch-ass (i dont like him bc i actually DONT like him as a char, but ykno my ex really nailed this bitch to the coffin for me), 3. satoshi from hyouka-energy
(hy**ka-fans dont @ me ever pls i never watched the whole anime and i only cared for ch*tanda bc she is babie)
no. 2 fucking SENDS me bc i get minor flashbacks of that person acting like they're sherlock holmes all the time except they feel like the BBC version of sherlock starring mr. beneficiary condiments where sherlock is just a plain pretentious JERK
AND ON THE SIDE i get compared to pasty-ass moriarty and im just "no thank u"
i also really hated when people look down on my taste in media and telling me im stupid for liking "dumb" things
also klk is legitimately good and pls dont ever compare it to PSG bc THEYRE ALSO GOOD. THEYRE BOTH GOOD. LIKING ONE OVER THE OTHER DOESNT MAKE U MORE SUPERIOR
also klk is legitimately good and pls dont ever compare it to PSG bc THEYRE ALSO GOOD. THEYRE BOTH GOOD. LIKING ONE OVER THE OTHER DOESNT MAKE U MORE SUPERIOR
being looked down like that for years fuels my anger towards "intelligent" animes and media like i cant watch Suta;Ge or DesuPara without thinking like "im probably too stupid to enjoy these series"
(side note: you are all valid for liking these series, i just cant consume overly heavy content like sutage or desupara without my peanut brain combusting)
okay back again i also can never touch B*nS*to Dogs bc the moment i saw fucking bitchass D*zai i just thought
"oh shit this is the embodiment of my ex's favourite tropes + mamo"
"oh shit this is the embodiment of my ex's favourite tropes + mamo"
okay yeah im good now. im solid. this thread is a mess but that was VERY therapeutic and i finally let out the reasons why i avoid certain things or certain fandoms
i hope no hard feelings here bc i have nothing against these listed animes/tropes/whatever as itself (youre free to like whatever!), they're just triggering to me in a sentimental sense.
one day i'll get over it. like, hey, i already got over a few things not listed here!
one day i'll get over it. like, hey, i already got over a few things not listed here!
(besides i muted tons of these words already and i constantly keep it updated in case there's smth new so let's sit that one out)
