just want to share my journey as i wrote chap7 of Just For Tonight

so for me it's the most difficult chapter to write...i think i spent the last two or so weeks mulling over it

i had like, 10 or so drafts of different possible scenarios, but i couldn't decide which one to put in

i was getting a bit frustrated a few days ago, because the emotions i wanted convey just aren't....well...being conveyed. i thought of taking a break/hiatus since i really couldn't come up with something decent

i just wanted it to hurt in a way that's not overbearing?? if that even makes sense...like, i don't want it to be extreme. more like, a searing heat or something like that. (idk what i'm onto here) but yeah. more than pure angst, i just wanted it to be bittersweet

and as if i had a eureka moment, i finally got to whip up with something i was satisfied with last night. YES. it only took me one fucking night to write that last scene, which i mulled over for weeks.

idk it just made me realize how invested i am with this fic? i've been writing fanfics for years now, but this is really the first time i was so motivated to finish a story. i don't think i've ever finished any multi-chaptered fics of mine. i always lose interest

this fic has really been fun to write. i'm just so in love with yoonmin, and in turn, it made me love my story. i think it's important for writers to enjoy their own creation and also like them. i only really learned that here.

this is getting lengthy, and i should probably save the rest for when i ACTUALLY get to finish the whole thing. but i love love love my version of yoonmin here, and i can't wait to write more and more for them

will probably delete this thread later or something, but yeah, it was really a memorable experience for me