Borderline personality disorder is a very complex and confusing disorder which many people donāt understand, hereās a few examples of things Iāve gone through:
Ps. Youāre not alone & you arenāt broken, weāre in this together
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Ps. Youāre not alone & you arenāt broken, weāre in this together

#BPDAwarenessMonth
Thereās many days where I wake up bouncing off the wall as if Iād just taken speed and then within MINUTES am crying my eyes out and wanting to die bc I remember Iām a real person
Constant fear on abandonment which leads to either constantly breaking up / pushing people away so that Iām in control, or refusing to leave situations that are bad for me bc āif the bad ones leave how will the good ones stay?ā
I canāt express how many times I tried to break up w my ex over the smallest most stupid disagreements bc I truly believed I should feel guilty over not being the perfect partner
I have spent an abhorrent amount of money on completely irrational things bc I have a very limited ability to control my impulses and behaviours - which usually leads to feelings of guilt so strong & result in self harm
I have no real sense of identity and just go on through life trying everything on and then dealing with some hefty imposter syndrome bc I donāt believe I can acc do anything
I have felt rage so strong that Iāve broken objects, screamed my throat ill, and self-harmed just for it all to be quiet for a minute