I just checked my school email (for updates regarding the closure) and, I have over 203 emails, ranging from Teachers to the Staff.

My heart stopped upon that sight.

And, everything just hit me.

Alot of weight got put back onto my shoulders, stress doubleteamed with relief, comfort disappeared, and pretty much everything just shattered.

It's definitely going to take awhile for this whole episode to blow over but, I'm not prepared!

I barely checked my school email while I was in school, and I completely forgot about EVERYTHING!!!

Also, the school can't really force me to do all the work. Especially since it'll be work stacked up from all the way back to mid-March.

What I'm trying to say is that, I've already dug myself a grave at this point. And with all the missing work, added stress, and the unanswered emails are all just digging it deeper. And deeper.

Even if/when this whole Pandemic blows over, I'll be beyond "far behind".

I'm definitely not okay rn! And, it's going to take an unknown amount of time to calm down!!

I'm done.