okay heres some rant stuff in the thread, if you don’t wanna read about me being sad, keep scrolling.

hi! um, i know it’s not fun to read how sad and angry i am but i really needed to vent and i feel like posting it here would be fine?? basically i’ve been put on antidepressants and they mess with me sometimes-

i’ve had a lot of breakdowns lately from childhood trauma and self consciousness, also from just liking someone, a lot, and doubting they don’t like me back, which, if they read this they probably will like me less and i’m just really sad and lonely-

i’ve also just been really clingy? i’ve been freaking out when friends don’t text back, but it’s also because i’m just lonely and really need someone to hold my hand and i’m so touch starved and having people talk to me helps me with that? also just paranoia-

also the fact that people have been unfollowing me makes me sad because i feel like i did something wrong. i feel like a bad person. i feel like i don’t deserve happiness and i don’t deserve you as friends. i’m sorry if i’m a bad person, i don’t try to be-

i just wish i could have more, i wish i could be more, but i’m awful and i just aaa i’m ranting about this on my tl and it’s just i feel like an idiot posting this but it’s gonna help me maybe? i don’t know. i just wish i was someone else sometimes.

anyways...thank you to the people who have stuck with me...i really appreciate you.... end thread.