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I’m so done with people and the Internet, I have zero faith in humanity bc humanity doesn’t help me when I need it. If I didn’t need social media to keep my small business alive, it would have been deleted back in September..
This isn’t necessary to put on full blast on here but it’s not the hormones talking. I’m exhausted and have been exhausted with everything for a long time and these hormones are not helping. I’ve been basically bed ridden since finding out I was pregnant
I’m getting insufficient prenatal care from my OB’s bc they don’t know how to handle a pandemic and I’ve been so sick and in pain from pregnancy, NOT COVID19. My mental capacity reached its limit a long long time ago and I can’t talk to anyone in my family or house bc they all
Just say it’s bc I’m pregnant and invalidate my feelings and are incredibly insensitive. I am emotional. I’ve been emotional all the time. I cry the most at night. Especially before being pregnant. I’m so tired of being SAD and ANGRY and no one here sees it.
And the worst part- my worst fear is feeling detached from my children. I’m already not feeling good enough as a mother and I’m so scared that my baby will have to have surgery bc of a kidney problem, and I’m 12/10 going to have post part I’m depression and no one in my house
Takes ME seriously. I’m the big joke who takes care of everyone else and I haven’t taken care of myself in a long time and my art, my stupid ugly cheap looking jewelry is my release. Where I’m not worried about anything else for just a few hours. And I can’t sit in a chair
That long. I’ve got a “support system” but they are NOT supportive. They do NOT help me the way I’ve always helped them. I’m not suicidal, don’t worry about that, I’m just an anxious person who has no output right now and needs a different placement for support right now.
PLEASE do not take this thread the wrong way. I am having a really hard time right now. I WILL be taking a break from twitter and everything else for a while. I will post updates for my Etsy shop if I have any time. I still have items ready to go, but
I am probably not going to be making anything new for a while until after the baby is born. Thanks for letting me rant twitter. I may lose some of you but please know I am so amazed by you all creative people.
