I think being high-functioning autistic is fundamentally worse than being lower on the spectrum. I don& #39;t present symptoms readily, and I take great pains to mitigate my behaviors and develop scripts for every social situation I& #39;m in on the regular.

This is then used against me.

It& #39;s really easy to excuse much worse behavior of autistic people whom slur words, run at the mouth or visually or verbally stim or lisp than it is the guy who& #39;s a bit verbose but otherwise cogent and alert. It& #39;s really easy to just say & #39;you aren& #39;t REALLY& #39; autistic.

So I can& #39;t even really say & #39;I& #39;m autistic I& #39;m sorry I wasn& #39;t aware& #39;, I literally pass too well, but not well enough that I don& #39;t make mistakes, but enough that nobody is willing to help me learn from them.

I& #39;m just broken enough to know how broken I am.

What& #39;s worse is even when I& #39;m truly sorry nobody believes me, because they just view building social scripts as being a liar, or a manipulator.

No, I& #39;m not trying to hide anything... I& #39;m just trying to figure out what you want from me and still maintain my independence from you.

It& #39;s really easy for an autistic person to be taken advantage of because ultimately we want to be accepted, and it takes SERIOUS EFFORT to mold a script around a group of people that isn& #39;t built around pleasing their every desire to make them like you.

I can& #39;t even describe it.