I. Was. Fucking. Canceled.

I lost work.

Friends.

I DO think about the long-term effects. Believe me. They suck.

I& #39;m still suffering. So when you& #39;re all, "Wait we need to do restorative action," I can& #39;t help but wonder why it& #39;s always the perpetrator who gets "restored."

And this wasn& #39;t even like six years ago. Last year. Last year, I made a stupid choice to try to take a job that I thought was a way to "get back in," to put all this shit behind me. I got my hopes up.

Then this shit bit me in the ass. Left me hurt again. Because this same shit.

Maybe he deserves restoration. Maybe he deserves redemption. Maybe I& #39;m selfish for thinking that maybe the victims in the story deserve to be redeemed before he does, because I& #39;m one of them.

I still see what they say about me.