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small little rant but i just realized that i’ll never the same childhood friend that i hung out with ever again .......
i met this kid when i was in like the 4th grade and although we weren’t great we ended up having a really special friendship.....his mom and mine are friends so we would often take trips to las vegas or san diego together
i remember that he and i used to enjoy going on rollercoasters and action rides since we were the oldest kids in the group and we were a natural pair (don’t worry this doesn’t go romantic LOL) and how i’d always go to their house for parties and games
and we were actually fairly close ..... we would hang out at each other’s hotel rooms and talk about stuff like school and surprisingly p*berty since it was around that age 
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but he was genuinely a friend to me...he would tell me about his crush and i would tell him about mine and i didn’t think that anything would go wrong....
so after a fight brawled out with his mom at one of the trips we took together he never came with us again so i assumed he was going through a phase, but it sucked bc i missed hanging out with him
and after two years, it turns out he did....he went down a completely different path and hung out with the wrong group...i met up with him at a trip to las vegas and he started spilling out all of this stuff to me about how his life completely changed when he entered hs
and the worst point is that bc he had numerous exes he belittled females ... he told me that although we were close he didn’t see us in that way anymore .... and my heart crushed bc thats when i knew that the friendship wouldn’t go back to the way it was
and i just sat there and gave advice as he started ranting more things about his past and the bad decisions he made...and i thought things like this only were in books but i didn’t think that it would happen to me....
he was flicking pens and shaking bc he was spilling all of this stuff to me and all i could do was reassure him...including his environment being filled w dr*gs....but i couldn’t even do anything because i didn’t know this would all happen in two years.....
and all i could do was just sit there and listen. his whole attitude had changed, he dressed differently and suddenly i didn’t know who this kid was. it wasn’t the same person three years ago who was on a rollercoaster with me screaming our hearts out.
the worst part is that we went back to the same place that we would ride our favorite rollercoaster in but he was too scared to ride on one despite him always wanting to in the past....it just felt like someone swapped him out with a different soul
and i knew that we would distance but never something like this....it hurts a lot because i actually had really fun memories with him but i know that it won’t come back now simply because of those two years that he went down the wrong path
every time he talked to me and i looked into his eyes, i knew that he wasn’t the same person as before. and it sucks because i’ll never get that same person again.
