Tweet chain incoming. As known I’m recovering from spinal surgery and everything that entails. Time away from work, home, family etc. I don’t know if anyone needs to see this chain but who knows maybe there is just one person like me who does. Anyway we’ll start next tweet.

See I’m broken like everyone is in some way. I am a perfectionist who isn’t perfect, who is demanding, loving, defensive of those I love & care about, & who also has a poor self-esteem & wishes he could protect & make the world perfect for all of those I love. Great combo huh?

It has taken many years of wanting to die, self-blame, choosing self-destructive practices to punish myself for self perceived failures to protect loved ones’s, keep an impossible promises, etc to finally learn to live with and even try to love someone I haven’t since childhood..

That person is myself. I couldn’t save my dying mother. I can’t take everyone I love’s pain away. I can’t save their loved ones lost. I’m not Superman. I’m not god. I projected these “failures” onto myself. How could anyone ever love this “failure”? Hence the path I went on.

Now though I’m learning to love that boy I forgot to. I’m learning it’s ok to cry and have these feelings while learning they’re not true. They’re twisted realities of what is the truth. When I felt most lone due to these lies I did & do have people that love & care about me too.

So what is the point of this thread you ask? To vent. To let anyone like me know that might just be having a bad day know you’re not alone. I’m there and there are others there who might not know ya but do love ya.

Also it’s to remind each other. Love each other. This world tries it’s damnedest to tear us all down. It’s easier to show love than hate, nastiness etc. we may not agree all the time but it doesn’t mean others who disagree should die, suffer, etc because they don’t agree with you

or are different from you too. We’re all just trying to survive in this screwed up world after all. Compassion, caring for others, etc doesn’t hurt. I’d rather everyone be taken care of than see people suffer or struggle to survive. Again just love each other because when we all

die the only thing that will matter is the love and kindness we showed. Just don’t be a douchebag to people and remember getting help and being vulnerable isn’t bad. We all need help sometime. So hello I’m not perfect or Superman. I’m Rj.