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di ko sure kung ready ako balikan lahat from the start to the effin end (nag end nga ba?) pero lets try
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same grade kami pero pang umaga sya nun (star section) and ako panghapon. nakilala ko siya recog practice namin. naaalala ko pa na uwian yun at naiwan ako nun ng service ko kaya kailangan ko maghintay sa next trip.
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lumapit sya sakin and nagpakilala. sobrang jolly nya nun tas dinaldal nya ko, kung ano-ano pinagusapan namin abt life and school.
sabi nya pa nun "alam mo, feeling ko makakapasok ka sa star sec next year top 1 ka sainyo eh"
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sabi nya pa nun "alam mo, feeling ko makakapasok ka sa star sec next year top 1 ka sainyo eh"
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pag ka-uwi, nagkachat kami tas nagkwento naman ako sakanya na gusto nga ng parents ko na mapasama ako dun para makapasok sa DL. sinabi ko din na nappresure na ko.
then he said (exactly) "wag ka mapepressure kasi yan yung hihila sayo pababa"
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then he said (exactly) "wag ka mapepressure kasi yan yung hihila sayo pababa"
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its been more than 2 years and tandang tanda ko pa din yan. little did he know na sobrang lungkot ko nun. andami kong problema, sa best friend ko, sa family ko, sa sarili ko.
sya yung andun na kachat ko halos araw-araw.
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sya yung andun na kachat ko halos araw-araw.
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naging masaya ako while facing my problems bc of him. nag papic pa sya sakin nung recog namin. pinilit nya ko na pumayag na mapunta sa star sec para maging magkaklase kami and yeah pumayag ako.
months after, nabuking ako na crush ko sya dahil sa isang kaibigan namin
months after, nabuking ako na crush ko sya dahil sa isang kaibigan namin
weeks passed and napapansin ko na iniiwasan nya ko, naging awkward kami sa isat isa. nagpapansinan kami and sobrang minsan lang.
feb 14, 2019. i got my first hug from him. tas he hugged me again 2 days after my birthday as his gift
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feb 14, 2019. i got my first hug from him. tas he hugged me again 2 days after my birthday as his gift
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halos yun lang interaction namin since we lost the closeness nga.
summer vacation that year, nagkachat ulit kami. nabalik yung closeness namin. umamin din siya na naging crush nya din ako nung nagkakilala kami.
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summer vacation that year, nagkachat ulit kami. nabalik yung closeness namin. umamin din siya na naging crush nya din ako nung nagkakilala kami.
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it means naging mag-mu kami pero di namin alam haha. inamin nya din na nawala yung feelings nya sakin kasi mas naging close sila ng best friend ko.
june 2019. nagkabday party sya and days after that nalaman ko na yung best friend ko pa din.
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june 2019. nagkabday party sya and days after that nalaman ko na yung best friend ko pa din.
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pero hindi sya gusto ng best friend ko.
during that year, nagkakainteract naman kami and he knows na gusto ko pa din sya.
Months passed and he told us na iba na daw crush nya. so believed bc i trust him so much.
during that year, nagkakainteract naman kami and he knows na gusto ko pa din sya.
Months passed and he told us na iba na daw crush nya. so believed bc i trust him so much.
I was always there to check on him kapag malungkot sya bc of acads, his fam or his "crush". apakamartyr ko, oo haha. wala akong pake sa sarili ko kahit alam kong nasasaktan ako.
i would support him on contests and school activities. sasabihan ko sya lagi ng congrats or goodluck.
i would support him on contests and school activities. sasabihan ko sya lagi ng congrats or goodluck.
kapag talo, icocomfort ko sya.
christmas. he gaved me this necklace (my fav flower is rose) as his thank you for everything i've done for him.
christmas. he gaved me this necklace (my fav flower is rose) as his thank you for everything i've done for him.
(her comes the most heartbreaking part for me)
a week after (christmas break), sobrang nasasaktan na ko para sakanya bc of his tweets abt his crush. i was ranting on my best friend then she confessed na he gave her a letter. he is confessing na sya pa din daw.
a week after (christmas break), sobrang nasasaktan na ko para sakanya bc of his tweets abt his crush. i was ranting on my best friend then she confessed na he gave her a letter. he is confessing na sya pa din daw.
all of my insecurities came back. questions popped in my head
"anong kulang sakin?"
"ano pa bang ginagawa kong mali?"
etc.
i isolated myself to my best friend. takot ako na baka may masabi ako sakanyang mali or masaktan ko sya. after that di na kami nagpasinan
"anong kulang sakin?"
"ano pa bang ginagawa kong mali?"
etc.
i isolated myself to my best friend. takot ako na baka may masabi ako sakanyang mali or masaktan ko sya. after that di na kami nagpasinan
nung magtatapos na yung sy, napansin ko na nagiging close sila. and di na din ako pinapansin nung taong gusto ko
that time may pinagdadaanan yung bestfriend ko abt sa mga katropa namin but he was there for her. he would confort her while he was crying just like how i comfort him
that time may pinagdadaanan yung bestfriend ko abt sa mga katropa namin but he was there for her. he would confort her while he was crying just like how i comfort him
he would also hold her hands (in front of me :>). lagi silang magkasama. parang kami dati.
lagi kong pinipigilan yung sarili ko na masaktan but this weaksht would end up crying while praying, or even infront of my other friends.
lagi kong pinipigilan yung sarili ko na masaktan but this weaksht would end up crying while praying, or even infront of my other friends.
one time, i cried and napansin niya. he wiped my tears using his hankerchier.
after that, i tried not to cry anymore infront of anyone. nahiya na din siguro ako. ayaw kong alalahanin nila ako.
after that, i tried not to cry anymore infront of anyone. nahiya na din siguro ako. ayaw kong alalahanin nila ako.
march. weeks before the ecq happened. napansin kong nagiiwasan sila. i talked to both of them amd said sorry for everything lalo na sa bestfriend ko.
april (?). i let him go. said thank you to everything. he also thanked me. i promised myself na, hindi ko na sya kukulitin
april (?). i let him go. said thank you to everything. he also thanked me. i promised myself na, hindi ko na sya kukulitin
or kakausapin unless sya yung lumapit.
right now, masasabi kong may feelings pa ko for him pero priority ko yung sarili ko.
right now, masasabi kong may feelings pa ko for him pero priority ko yung sarili ko.
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end up crying din pero oks lang HAHAHAHAHA lilipas din toh
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end up crying din pero oks lang HAHAHAHAHA lilipas din toh
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