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boi meron akong kwento!

a thread of my biggest heartbreak:

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unlike tilaluha na forgetting someone after he finds someone new, mine is — forgetting someone who left me for someone who left him, kumbaga: ang dati. hindi someone new.

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before making this kwento let me clarify na i am happy now with my boyfriend and that my ex and i are finally in good terms after two years.

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it all started when a common friend recommended him to me as a photojournalist in my org. fast forward, nagkarupukan. it took us months before we had to say na kami na talaga.

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we both work in the school pub, i was the EIC and was also balancing time because my team & i were prrparing for the regional contest para sa research. tapos, acads pa. sabay sabay lahat ng stress.

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he started not showing up in work hours. tapos this time came na a common friend told me this kwento na he joked with his friends daw. it was his ex bday kasi tapos hinanap siya ng gift. he said “bakit? hindi pwede ang late na regalo?”

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that was the first time since courting days na i heard of him and his ex’s interaction. nung nalaman ko yun, wala na ko sa wisyo. i cant edit well, cant write well. nabuang na ata. tapos di pa siya nagpapakita.

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i was so busy na i cant even hold my phone pero i chatted him saying na “may kasalanan ka sakin”. gusto ko lang marinig sa kaniya manggaling. he replied with “yung kay ((other common friend)) ba to?”

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i wondered why he asked about it e dicnaman involved yun na friend ko. nagtaka ako but he said ah wala daw kasi galit daw si friend sa kanya. binalewala ko lang.

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the same night, we were working OT sa school. we were having dinner when he told me gusto niya na raw maging “malaya”. i was trying my best not to cry in front of my friends. pakatatag, sobrang hectic na ng gawain tapos brbreakdown pa ko

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i was crying silently sa harap ng PC. i told him yes and i cant do anything about it. i just started crying. kala ko dun na natapos, until all his lies became clear to me.

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after we broke up, saka sabay sabay dumating lahat ng balita sakin.

PUTA! i was being cheated over ALL THE FUCKIN TIME and me and my friends was not even aware of it.

+part 2 of thread coming

what’s so sad about this is that, BULAG AKO ALL THE TIME. i didn’t hear anything. nobody told me anything.

basically, anyone who knew about it hinayaan lang ako magpakatanga

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and the worst part?

AKO PALA ANG KABIT.

solid ba? ako niligawan. tapos nung nagkabukingan, ako ang hindi ipinaglaban.

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after we broke up, one by one they told me what they knew.
imagine mo yung sakit na nararamdaman ko, bawat araw may bagong kwento na para bang nagmanhid na ako.

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yung sabi niyang kung kay common friend daw ba yung kasalanan ko, kasi pala.

this common friend borrowed his phone. p.s he never lent me his phone EVER. kasi yun pala may tinatago na.

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tapos that common friend was his ex chatting him calling him “babe”. ang lupet diba?! tapos the common friend called him out. he said na trip trip lang daw yun at wag daw ipapaalam sakin. so common friend didnt tell me until we broke up.
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ang malupit pa, pag keento sakin ni common friend i saw rightin front of my eyes na they were together. tangina HAHAHAHAHAHA hinatid pa nga palabas ng campus HAHAHAHAH

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ETO PA NICE. i took my ustet in manila. basically i was away when my school had a camp.

ayun, habang mamatay ako kaka aral may kasama palang iba HAHAHAHAHA ASTEEEG DIBA???

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tapos what’s nice pa is, my flight home arrived and di niya man lang ako sinundo despite calling him so many times HAHAHAHAHA. KASI YUN PALA MAY KASAMANG IBA!

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i invited him na kumain kami sa mcdo pakadating ko pero he didnt answer. when we broke up, a friend told me he saw the two of them together the same day i went home. they were in mc freaking do!

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ang dami ko pang ikekwentong kagaguhan niya pero baka mabukasan tayo HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

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hindi ko ma explain yung sitwasyon ko nung time na yun kasi siguro i was just so hurt i became numb.

i had to balance the school pub, research, acads and my heartbreak.
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hanggang ngayon nandito pa rin yung marka.

yung self doubt.

mapapatanong ka ng, bakit ko ba deserve yun? nagmahal lang naman ako eh.

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legit yung “san ba ko nagkulang?”

alam mo yun? na kahit masaya ka na kapag naalala mo nanjan pa talaga yung kirot kasi ginago ka nung taong minahal mo naman ng buo

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alam niyo yung pinakamasakit na part?

he asked for a favor.

wag ko daw ipapagsabi na pinagsabay niya kami nung girl. kasi lagot daw siya sa kuya nun baka bugbugin siya.

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so ako si tanga, martyr amputa.

i contacted the girl asking if sila nga ba.

she replied saying “yes, pero okay lang naman.”

???????????? she knew.

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ang sakit. she knew.

pero what she knew is, ako ang nakisali.

ako ang nanira.

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kaya ang tagal tagal ko nakuhang magpatawad kasi he never cleared my name.

he never told his friends or his girl friend’s friends na he was at fault.

everyone had their judgement on me., they never knew i was also a victim.

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yung nagmahal ka lang naman.

sa maling tao pang ginago ka kesa mahalin ka.

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i treat this heartbreak as a blessing kasi if di ko to napagdaanan, hindi ko marerealize ang totong worth ko as a woman. nagkaroon ako ng standard kung pano nga ba talaga ako dapat i-treat as a person.

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nga pala, nung nagka jowa na ko he tried to contact me pa saying things na most of the exes na nagsisisi would say. alam niyo na yun HAHAHAHA

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kahit napatawad na kita at friends na tayo, quiningina mo pa din. HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH

END OF THREAD. TARA SHAT!

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