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truscum convincing a whole generation of trans youth that you have to LITERALLY hate yourself, have chronic depression, hate your body, and be on the brink of death itself, in order to be trans...one of the most harmful things to ever happen.. it is so fucked.

this whole white colonial transmedical wave all of them ride abt needing dysphoria and checking boxes to be trans.. when BIPOC have been saying since the dawn of time that it isnt true? gatekeeping isnt even the word for it. that shit is evil. and its hurt so many people.

thats why its so refreshing and makes me feel okay when i see trans and queer BIPOC speak above it and educate others. ive seen so much stuff on here that i would never have access to anywhere else. so much stuff that gets drowned out by white square headed binary trans men.

do you know how many trans men of color i never even knew existed until i got on here? do you know how rare and out of place i felt until then? how much my Blackness was at risk of being erased bcuz all the passing tips and visibility came from white men?

how much i started to hate how much i weighed because all the passing tips and trans self help included hitting the gym or going on a diet or building muscle? how i had never seen an unapologetically fat black trans person until i got on here?

do you have any idea how much of that toxicity i internalized, and how much it set me back in discovering who i am or what im comfortable with? and even in that state i never, ever, used it against other trans people. (this doesnt mean im better than others, we all can grow)

and now im on here. healing and unlearning and listening to my fam. there are so many concepts and affirmations that people arent getting outside of here. or at least where I'm at. because the representation is so overly white and harmful.

like its crazy bcuz i learned the term deadname and ya know its fine but someone on here (please tag them if you know!) explained that theres nothing dead abt who we use to be. something along the lines of that name and that person we were before, housing us(?) and it stuck.

like yeah im von now and im yadda yadda yadda. but i never violently hated my identity while it kept me, if that makes sense? it just wasnt right and so i changed. its simple. i was uncomfy and so now im different. thats it really.

okay im rambling at this point and this was really for me to get my thoughts down and have a little dialogue but! this conversation is important to me. and i really dont want white people or cis people interacting with the thread.. unless they are BIPOC.. yeah.

trans people follow me! BIPOC follow me! id love to talk to yall

wait omg not to keep adding onto this but i know a few ppl have already done so, but, i know i said i didnt want white people or cis people to interact but i feel like you can like and RT in support and to spread my message. just dont overstep or talk over me! okay thanks!

im muting this now but you are all wonderful and thanks for reading! watch "Moonlight" (2016) Dir. Barry Jenkins !