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Good morning, I want to rant about something.
No one likes this topic but we’re gonna talk about it because I am apparently still fucked up over being in a toxic/manipulative friendship for seven years— if my nightmares have anything to say about it.
So, there was this person back in freshmen year of high school (9th grade— i.e. we were 14-15y/o) that immediately became my friend the first day of school. The friendship started off fine for a while until it kind of... didn’t?
When I started making other friends, they started getting really possessive over our friendship— (a lot of this information is coming from other friends because I apparently blocked A LOT out from high school)— they went so far as to threaten me with not being my friend anymore.
I also ended up becoming a toxic person back in high school, I was awful and it’s embarrassing and shameful to think about, but I think I ended up becoming that way and treating my other friends badly because I was being treated badly. Not an excuse ofc, I’m still remorseful.
I became a different person, an awful person, when I was with them, but I never picked up the red flags until after high school, when we were in college— I started noticing how they would treat other people.
I started picking up how controlling they were when they demanded that their partners do something they didn’t want to do, and the anger issues when they didn’t get their way— they left a dent in the apartment wall from throwing their phone that I ended up paying for.
I dropped out of college after a month and a week and a half for reasons I’m not ready to disclose just yet— and when I went back home, our friendship started changing. Because a month later they told me on skype they met someone from CAD but didn’t want me to be mad.
I said “...why would I be mad?”
“They’re 14.”
At this time, I was 19 and they had recently turned 18. And you want to know what I did?
I fucking did NOTHING. I was in so much shock and tried to explain why that was wrong but they convinced me it was okay because they’re asexual.
“They’re 14.”
At this time, I was 19 and they had recently turned 18. And you want to know what I did?
I fucking did NOTHING. I was in so much shock and tried to explain why that was wrong but they convinced me it was okay because they’re asexual.
And I let it fucking happen and I was STILL THEIR FRIEND. I’m so angry at myself for that, I should have dropped them right then and there— but then it got WORSE.
Later down the line they tell me that they’re polyam. I said “okay”, and then they proceeded to tell me how they were involved with two 15 y/os along with the 14 year old. I was 20 and they were 19 during this time. It proceeded to get worse because once again, I did NOTHING.
It wasn’t until they actually had sex with one of the 15 y/os that it started clicking that everything they were doing was wrong. They were in college and this teen was literally JUST entering high school. I tried again to get them to understand but it blew out of proportion —
Until I finally blocked them. I blocked them everywhere.
Now they’ve been going around telling people that I’m the one that gave them PTSD. Right back at you, you manipulative asshole.
Now they’ve been going around telling people that I’m the one that gave them PTSD. Right back at you, you manipulative asshole.
Will probably delete this thread later but, until then: bon appétit
