it’s 3am and none of my friends are picking up the phone so i am simply going to cry on twitter:

i publicly identify as bi rn but i am literally a lesbian? i came out as a LESBIAN when i was 12 but then i started saying i was bi bc I had somehow convinced myself that i like men,

but the unfortunate reality is that i rly don’t like men and i am just scared that if i commit to being a lesbian i lose any chance i have at a normal life :( bro i KNOW i’m a lesbian and honestly i think i have known the whole time,,,

i dated a man for a year and half (he eventually cheated on me bc i did not like having sex with him lmao i wonder why) and the whole time i felt fucking dumb bc i loved him as a person but i could NOT make myself be attracted to him and then i felt guilty af about it

you fucking idiot you’re gAY and you have known that your entire life!!! and everyone else probably knows and my friends sometimes hint about me being the “secret lesbian” bc i literally do not ever show interest in men unless prompted

BUT i am going to continue to identify as bi and fucking LIE to everyone in my life bc I have commitment issues and i am afraid if i start saying i’m a lesbian again i will change my mind (?) or regret it bc I want a normal fucking life without being the token lesbian yknow

anyway sorry for bitching :,) idk why i suddenly came to this conclusion but it’s a long time coming and i’ve been dancing around it in my own head for a while. tomorrow i will simply delete this thread and pretend i didn’t ever address it probably