Being stuck in the house has given me too much time to think. I've come to the conclusion that I'm a rubbish person. I feel like so far I have wasted my life as it has no real path or purpose. I could have spent my time doing more for others instead of wasting it on silly things.

I really admire all the incredible people out there who do various amazing selfless acts & have an impact on the lives of others. I cannot imagine how rewarding that must be to know that you've genuinely made a difference & helped make someone's life that little bit better.

I think I definitely need to set a goal to better myself as a human & be more selfless. I'd absolutely love to help people in some way, shape or form so that my life has purpose and it hasn't been a waste but I need to figure out how I can help using the few skills that I have

while I also tackle self doubt & anxiety. I just hope one day I can look at my life & the choices I've made & feel proud of myself and what I've added to society because right now it feels like my life has been a big pointless waste and I haven't made the slightest impact at all.