*TW

I see this message alot but it doesnt comfort me at all. When I'm going through a depressive episode, contemplating suicide isnt about being heard (FOR ME) it's about escaping the crushing weight of sadness, pain, & hopelessness.

Only when I'm out of the episode do I think about the consequences. How it will affect my family and friends. But even still, listening to my story doesnt help because nobody wants to be pitied. And the shallow tips ppl come up with to combat our suicidal thoughts dont help

Some ppl dont have a story to tell. Sadness can wash over you randomly and without a reason. Sometimes I have no clue why I'm sad. And you cant just turn it off or think positive thoughts or "just be happy". Mental illness is real and affects even the strongest person