YAWA NING FIRST LOVE

; a thread (might delete later 00f)

IT ALL STARTED IN JUNE (bilis ng pangyayari first month ng klase amp HAHAHA)

we met in a simple way like in some movies when u met someone just by passing by then u caught each other's eye (ganon nga nangyari HAHA) PERO wala pa akong feelings sa kaniya. he and his friend (ahem, a ghorl) were teasing and i didn't even care a bit

AND I THOUGHT THEY WERE M.U but nah they were just the 'closest' friends. (skl i was insecure noon kasi rami kong pimples.)

tas one time nung nag volleyball sila sa kanilang class yard and i was oustide sitting (dismissal na kase yon) and wondering if who's that guy that I just saw while I was passing by (he was wearing grey 'attack on titan' jacket.)

then i heard one of his classmates calling his name and that's just my luck (luh mission completed.) so yeh the other day, "i kinda like some guy" i said that without hesitating and my seatmate (aka my closest kalog friend ) said "the boy who's wearing that grey jacket?"

"oo, siya nga PERO konti lang " dinagdag ko. then my seatmate said "oOoY first love." (kasi nga dati wala talaga akong crush HAHAHAHA like as en) then i gave her the "don't you dare tease me" look. THAT TIME I WAS STILL CONFUSED BUT I KNOW THAT I HAVE A THING FOR THAT BOY.

(taymsa! maliligo muna ako HAHA brb)

*skip time*

lunch time na bheps tas kami ng seatmate ko ay bumili ng food sa canteen 2 (may canteen 1 kami eh). tas sabi ng seatmate ko sa best friend ko na clasmmate niya ang lalaki (which is best friend ko nung nursery) "sino yung lalaki na grey na jacket?"

sabi ng bestfriend ko "si ------ ata yun" (YES tama narinig ko.) "maganda yun magdrawing" dinagdag ng best friend ko. gosh at least may 'in common' kami sa isa't isa. (rami pala kaming in common hehe.)

so yun many months passed by then i started to like him even more which is very sad 'cause i even know his past crushes :'((

October 26 2019: biggest event namin kasi start palang yan sa intrams (may banda, pageants etc.), around quarter to 2 pm, nagstart na ang event. pagkatapos ng isang intro, breaktime muna daw. so lumabas kami sa gym kasami ng section c na friends ko rin (dami ko friends noh HAHA)

tas bumili kami ng pagkain then when another program was about to start, i insist them to go on inside (so yown ako nalang isa sa labas ;-;) and then i approached my boy bes kasi iinom at kakain rin siya so yun hinintay ko sya TAPOS NAKITA KO CRUSH KO so tumalikod ako

"hoy bilisan mo malapit na magstart ang program" sinabi ko sa aking boy bes (naiinis siya sakin that time pero wala akong pake alam -,-) tas nung malapit niya na maubos ang inuman niya, i glanced at my crush and he ate siomai with his fam (so cute pati lil bro niya uwu <33)

tas bigla lang tumakbo boy bes ko patungo sa entrance (boi bilis niya tumakbo) so tumakbo rin ako kasi malalate kami.

YOWN! start na ng program then i sat beside my section c friends again. seconds later, i saw my crush sat in his own seat (one seat across kami ack) then he began to cry. i stared at him and wondered bakit siya umiyak and then he glanced at me tas bigla akong-

bigla akong tumingin sa friends ko at sa stage pretending nothing happened (i think he caught me staring ;-;) and then he glanced at me AGAINNN (ghorl two times na). i think he suspects that i'm suspicious lol (i want to comfort him tho but we're not close :<<)

pagkatapos ng pangyayari, dumating ang bibo kong friend, he sat beside me and greeted me then he gave me that "i will tease you" look and i was needing help lol. to silence an awkward moment, i then said (let's call him BKF) "BKF, palibre bhe." he gave me a confused look then

then he thought an idea. he then begged for money to my crush (they also are classmates) and i was dead and pissed off to BFK. my crush laughs and he said that he doesn't have any money (he's cute omg :'(() and yet another awkward moment -,-

u know what the 'not so funny' part is? BFK and my crush switched seats and he kept teasing us and i really am embarrassed and upset (and at the same time kilig -,-) ofc huwag muna ako assuming kasi mahirap nayan

December 24 2k19:

holi shet nag post ng bagong profile si crush, paheart nga. (so yun akong yung 2nd reactor niya BWAHAHA)

so yun naisip ko rin na mag babagong profile ako.

December 28:
the first time na kahit like lang sa profile ko @~@

same as march 9 (ignore the angry react, it's just a friend of mine that likes to make fun of me -,-):

March 14: last day of school
~dismissal~
i was planning to confess him on that day but i was too scared because we don't have any closure at all. i hugged some of my classmates and that i'll miss them but while i was hugging, he passed by and we eye contact for 0.2189823 seconds

(just like where and when we first met) he brought something and i just couldn't remember what it is. did i confessed? sadly no but it's for the best and i was pretty sad when i walked home like urgh i wish i didn't met him :((

March 14th; me at home:

i asked for advice and then a good best friend of mine said-

so ye i did as her well said advice

i patiently waited and for past months, he didn't replied and seen my message at all

so yeah i was getting tired for making my hopes up. then one day, "maybe i should take a break for these crush things" and so i officialy uncrushed him. :)) it wasn't that he was a jerk (he's an angel i assure u) but i am just tired of waiting and holding on..

so ye, he was a poem- but i stopped reading it charot HAHA. wattpad na ba dis?

(i'll delete this thread if my cousin will ever saw this )