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my life as samantha vera
since i was a kid, my parents would tell me to be friendly, to be good and always be prim and proper
they send me to different workshops: etiquette, building self confidence, public speaking ,ballet, taekwondo, dance, voice, guitar and piano workshops
pinapasama kami palagi ng siblings ko sa mga gatherings pinapaperform or pinapasikat ( kahit sobrang nakakahiya kailangan kapalan yung mukha)
at first it was so difficult kasi i feel like im pretending to be someone. parang im losing my self identity already just to satisfy them
"you need to be like this", "you need to be like that", "you can't be like that di yan maganda sa mata ng iba"
imagine for 18years nakaya ko yon, lakas and tibay ng loob lang yan hahaha
imagine for 18years nakaya ko yon, lakas and tibay ng loob lang yan hahaha
as time goes by, wala naman akong magagawa so tinatanggap ko nalang. bawal kasi ako humindi mapapagalitan ako
kahit introvert ako kailangan ko maging extrovert pagkasama sila. kahit ayaw ko sa mga social gatherings, kailangan ko sumama kasi magagalit sila.
pretending is my talent 
this year i'm already an incoming freshman. my parents wanted me to take a business related course its either marketing, accountancy or entrepreneurship. syempre i will not say no kasi mapapagalitan ako
kahit na gusto ko mag fashion design,interior design, film or theater and performing arts courses bawal, kasi di daw practical. wala daw ako patutunguhan dun. Art is just for hobbies lang daw di practical na profession.
Ayaw din nila ako maglaw school kasi sayang daw time kakaaral kung pwede naman magtrabaho agad.
sobrang hirap lang na kailangan mo magpretend just to satisfy other people. kailangan mo unahin yung ikakasaya nila para di sila madisappoint . kailangan kasali sila sa lahat ng plano mo para di ka nila pagalitan kailangan mo unahin yung gusto nila kasi sila yung nagbubuhay sayo
sobrang toxic sometimes, pero wala eh anak lang tayo. toxic talaga sometimes filipino parents hahaha
this thread is so messy i know, makalat yung ideas. sorry sinulat ko to ng naiiyak hiho 
