[DON& #39;T OPEN this thread if you are sensitive with topics like depression and all that or if you just don& #39;t want to see negative stuff on your TL. This is just about me and shit I& #39;ve been dealing with for so long I have to let it out. You& #39;ve been warned.] —

— So honestly, there& #39;s no good way to start off this thread nicely so; I have depression. Really bad depression. I& #39;m really sick of it but it& #39;s there, jabbing at me and my mental health for so damn long now it& #39;s driving me crazy. I try to be happy or "act" —

— happy and it probably adds more strain if anything. I& #39;d like to get help, and maybe I will someday, I just can& #39;t afford professional help. I did speak out that I& #39;ve not been feeling well in terms of my mental health but this thread right here is just —

— really everything and confirming everything. It has definitely gotten noticeably worse and at this point, I can& #39;t afford it to get worse. I& #39;m still trying to piece my life together, I& #39;m still trying to find my worth in this world, I& #39;m still trying to apply —

— myself like I& #39;m not worthless. I have a job now, I& #39;m graduating; and while those things help it isn& #39;t enough. Everything I do feels hollow and I feel empty inside. I just stopped giving an ounce of a shit to everything and I on God cannot tell you why. —