Just came back to watch anime (haven't been watching anything for months) and it kinda depresses me since I have none of those amazing things in anime

I mean yes I know it isn't real. I only watch those school/casual themed animes, and it makes me regret my every decision that stopped me from being happy and loved

and those couple/pairs mostly. because of my lack of communicating skills and anxiety I can't have great relationship with anyone (even as a friend)

I shouldn't be jealous about anime since they're just our imagination, but those kinda relationship really do happen IRL and it's not really rare.

I just hate that I can't be what I wanted to become and can't move on.