it’s very unsettling to oddly be the happiest I have been in a very long time while also grieving

don’t get me wrong i still have depression and deal with bouts of anxiety but this is truly the most okay I have felt in like two years?

I think the biggest reason I am okay at the moment is the tools I have to take care of myself have adapted to the current situation and it’s mind boggling

I am dealing with grief everyday from family to community but I am able to move through it? I don’t know how but it terrifies me sometimes

Now I am just dealing with the shame and sadness of all that was lost in those two years of deep deep sadness as I come out on the other side.

I share this because we are dealing with the waves in different ways and this is an extremely unsettling time for all of us.

I hope this wave is here to stay, and if it’s not I will get through it but I hope we can all continue to practice self compassion and self forgivenesshttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🧡" title="Orange heart" aria-label="Emoji: Orange heart">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🧡" title="Orange heart" aria-label="Emoji: Orange heart">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🧡" title="Orange heart" aria-label="Emoji: Orange heart">

We say inshallah and mashallah https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🧡" title="Orange heart" aria-label="Emoji: Orange heart">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🧡" title="Orange heart" aria-label="Emoji: Orange heart">