When I was in Afghanistan I was in a situation in which we had all the resources to save the life of a teenage kid who was wounded in a suicide bombing, but he was of course refused medevac because we only treated civilian casualties if we were at fault for them. He then died. https://twitter.com/johncardillo/status/1264594237154361344

and I mean lol, this guy is some boring loser who tweets all day about imaginary disrespect to cops, but that incident was I think for me a moment in which I had to either just become completely dead inside or acknowledge that we weren't there to do good. So, I'd say it was then.

But honestly, another extremely radicalizing moment was getting refused medical treatment for a severe dental injury at age 22 because I didn't have a credit card on me -- I'm still dealing with some of the medical consequences of that

Another one would be getting a warning message to inspect all the helmets that we'd worn during a 13-month combat deployment because they'd been made to an unsatisfactory standard by their manufacturer, Federal Prison Industries https://finance.yahoo.com/news/prison-inmates-made-helmets-us-173823097.html

anyway none of this was classified or even all that secret -- it takes about two days in uniform to realize you've joined the Post Office with Guns, but after the incident in Afghanistan I guess I lost the ability to rationalize the upsetting things I would encounter

so yeah, probably not the answer that John Carmageddon wanted, but there you have it