My apology to @JohnLaurensz
a thread:

1) For the first time, ever, I have no words. What I have done has no reasonable excuse, so all I can do is ask for you to accept my humble apology. We have been through thick and thin, and in those rough times, I couldn't have asked for a better companion...

2) You are perfect, (to me, anyway) sure, all men have flaws, that's what makes us human. But I believe that you're on the best examples of a person, charming, caring, etc. And then there's me, out of everyone you could've chosen, it was me. And I'm grateful for that ...

3) though I wonder, why take your chance on me? I guess it's my fault, sadly, getting close to me has its consequences. You see, I have a hard time interpreting my feelings, creating problems. I crave attention and love, and I will take it from almost anyone...

4) Mixed with my tendency to act before thinking, I make horrible and unjust actions towards the people I love. In those few years I've been with you, I have grown extremely close, closer than anyone I've ever met before, and I don't think anyone can top it...

4) And I don’t want my foolish actions ruining that, forgive me, Laurens, I can't lose you again.
A.Hamilton